To be honest, I haven’t always believed in peoples’ energies. I haven’t always believed that you could see red flags, or just feel that something was off. But I sure do now that I’m older, and (hopefully) wiser, and have been through a thing or two. Every perspective I’ve gained has been hard-earned and every lesson I’ve learned has been fought for. I believe that some people don’t make a good match. I believe that sometimes we need to listen to our own intuitions whispering “something here isn’t right.” I believe in really digging in and paying attention to those gut feelings. I believe energies shift and change. Some are good. Some aren’t. Some give life. Some suck you dry. Some things can be explained and some can’t. Sometimes you just know, and we have to be open enough to explore what’s going on and why. I still believe in giving grace, not reading a book by its cover and not being so arrogant to believe I am capable of “reading” people correctly every time. I believe sometimes the weird feelings are coming from myself—my own insecurities, my own past coming back to bite me, my own fears and that I have to be the one to get myself in a more positive place. I believe sometimes I’m the problem and it’s up to me to look in the mirror and get my side of the street clean. I believe people can grow and change and learn to do better, and I believe some seasons are hard and that we will all go through it at some point—where it’s not in us to be light and happiness and constant warm fuzzies. And I believe there is goodness in each and every one of us, and on that same token, I believe we all have our stuff and we need to be gentle with each other. But I’m too old to believe everyone is healthy for my heart and I’m too old to believe everyone is good for my soul. I’m too old to believe energies don’t exist and I’m too old to ignore it when someone has repeatedly shown me who they are. So now, I lean in and I listen a little closer to those little whispers, those voices that say “this is a safe place for you and this is a place that is not. This is where you should spend more time and this is where you should remove yourself” without judging, without insulting, without gossiping, bitterness or ugliness ,Not as a way of being bad to them, but as a way to honor all that I’ve learned in my time here on earth and as a way to protect the most precious part of myself—my heart and soul, so that love is continuously flowing in and out of me, because I’m old enough to know that love is really what it’s all about. Love, Loving ourselves as much as we love those around us, Its just how I see life these days ..
