jane_and.the_dragon

    I got some good news today when i had the tee done.  Pending surgeon's review and ok: I will not have to get the mitral valve replacement, AT LEAST NOT FOR NOW! Also, they said the blood clot that was in my left atrial appendage is gone.  So if the cardiac surgeon agrees with my cardiologist, no surgery yayyyyyy  After months of bad news I finally get some good news.

I have been into audiobooks a lot lately, and I thought maybe I would review some of them. The irony of this is some of the books I will be reviewing are in the romance book category. That is a style of book I used to avoid a lot when I was younger. One series of books drug me into this style of audiobooks. I think I may have mentioned that series before. The book I am going to review is one in the romance category, but it is not what most would see as romantic.
It is called: Reverse Harem Romance) - J.L. Beck, C. Hallman. It will not be to everyone's liking. There is violence, sex, adventure, betrayal and love. It starts out with 3 military trained men infiltrating the home of the man that killed their family and violated their sister (it was never made clear why their family was killed). They were out for revenge, and they wanted to search their enemy's house while he was at an event. There was not supposed to be anyone home. They were surprised to find the man's daughter home. She saw their faces, so it was either take her with them, or kill her. They tied her, gagged her and took her with them, against the protests of the oldest brother. They were not nice to her at first, and they made a video of the abuse to send to her father. To their surprise, he did not respond. They had all his communications monitored. They made another video of them abusing his daughter a bit more graphic. It went unanswered, but this time they got a conversation of him with his head of security confirming his orders to kill them all, even his own daughter.
Two of them realize this will not work, but the oldest one decides to make one more video and send it to her father. His brothers were furious with him. They were realizing she was a victim. After the third video, she gets ill, and with much arguing between the brothers, they take her to the hospital under a fake name. The oldest brother stays with her the whole time while his brothers keep a look-out. The next day, when she woke up and her fever broke, he told her to tell the doctor she wants to leave. When she asked and what if I don't, he tells her he will slit the doctor's throat and carry her out. He tells her if she does not do as he says, she will be responsible for the doctors' death. She does as she is told, but they do not escape fast enough, her father's men find them. While shooting their way out, the oldest brother drags the girl away. Once out of reach of the gun fire, he gives her instructions were to go and hide and wait for him. She has second thoughts about obeying him, that minute of indecisiveness allows her father's security to find her. They are about to shoot her when the oldest brother tackles them, and one of them drops his gun. The oldest brother tells the girl to run. The man shoots him in and is about to finish up, the girl gets the gun and shoots the attacker's head off. They get away, and the brothers are both mad at her for not following orders, and getting the oldest brother shot and that she would think of leaving them they were protecting her NOW.
After some pain and some sex, the older brother tells them he will not kill her, he now agrees with his brothers they will keep her. To which one brother quits : Welcome to the team. We made t shirts. I could not help but laugh at that. The girl is all in on helping them. She told the older brother no one had ever cared for her the way he and his brothers did, and that she loved them. Realizing her father wanted her dead, made her want him dead, so when the brothers told her they would kill him, she was fine with that. After more fighting, they manage to get her father. It was then they find out he was not her real father. Her mother had cheated on him for years, but he did not know she was not his daughter till much later. Her father goes to his grave without telling where their drive they were looking for is. The 4 of them left the country to avoid prosecution for all the people they killed. The settled somewhere that allowed more than one person married to the same person at the same time, and she married all 3 brothers.
Months later, a package came to her from the head of her father's security that helped them get her father and saved the girls' life. The letter inside said he was still looking for her real father, that he thinks he is still alive. And there was another smaller box with the letter. Inside was the drive they had been looking for when they broke into her father's house the night they abducted her. After all that killing and pain, the book ended on a high note. If you do not like sex and violence and murder and bad language, this is NOT the book for you. But if you do, it is a fantastic story.

I know I annoy people, A LOT, sometimes. I was just suggested I take a chill pill. lol Not the first time someone has told me that. Like I said, I am aware I annoy some people sometimes. What you all do not get is I rarely do it deliberately. Most times I do not even know I did it, till someone has the brains to tell me i annoyed them, or hurt their feelings. One can not even try to fix a bad behavior IF they have no clue it's bugging people.
Then you will occasionally get those people that say "YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DID" well if I knew I would not be asking what I did. My neighbor across the street called me a hypocrite one day. I asked her what she meant and why she thought that, and she said you know what you did. We are talking again, but to this day i have no clue on what she based that assumption.
I am aware of a few things I do without realizing it. I say you know wayyyyyyyyyyy too often, as a way to see if the person I am talking to is paying attention. I know I talk way too fast sometimes , thing is in my head it does not seem fast till someone tells me it was too fast. I will then make a continuous effort to slow down my speech. IF I KNOW I AM DOING SOMETHING THAT BUGS SOMEONE, i will make an effort to stop it. Grant it sometimes the mental patch does not hold and i end up doing it again, but it is not for lack of effort to fix it.
I have many friends and family who can not help being on the net on their cells, even when they have company. THAT IS ANNOYING TO ME. My brother's family is a perfect example of that. He asked me down one Christmas, a couple of years ago. They ALL had their noses stuck in the phones and tv. So I said to him, why did you invite me if you were all going to ignore me in favor of your devices? He has not asked me back. That is fine with me, because his favorite hobby is picking at everything I do. I thought I had made the point for him to stop that. It lasted about 10 years, and he has started it up again. Like I said, sometimes mental patches on irritating behavior do not hold. People can try to change things. That is all they can do, either the changes stick or they do not. I have noticed a few people that have read my blogs are annoyed by some of them, and whether I like it or not they will tell me so. Wish everyone would learn to speak their mind.

Did you ever notice when you are already fighting with depression, the stupidest little things will make you cry?
Did you ever notice how some people will turn into the same kind of personality that they themselves hated just a short time ago?
Did you ever notice how some people will leave their old friends behind when they get a better job?
Did you ever notice when you are worrying about something, EVERYTHING bugs you?
Did you ever notice that sometimes people that mean the world to you can walk out of your life and not look back like you never mattered?
Did you ever notice things that matter to you do not matter to others at all? kind of like this blog lol
Did you ever notice sometimes writing a blog or talking to people help when you are not in a good mood?

I do not know exactly when yet, but it will prob be after July. They are going to need to replace my heart valve, and I am really scared. They tell me this problem came from the rheumatic fever I had when I was in 4th grade. The doctor is thinking I should get a mechanical valve. The upside, I will most likely never need it replaced again, and no poor animal has to die to make it. The downside, a mechanical valve, means I will be on warfarin the rest of my life. I was kinda hoping to be able to change to a diff blood thinner after the tee. Guess that goes out the window. If I had a bio one put in, I would not need the blood thinner, but that would only last 10 or 15 years. I really do not think i want to do this again at 75 or 80.